If Only..

If only I'd stop getting in my way.. If only I'd stop looking over the moon's shoulder to keep checking if it's there.. If only I'd stop retracing the way my breathing wants to breath and my feelings want to feel.. If only I'd get sick and bored of ''if only..''

(if only this place wrote itself and I'd just collect the cream like any lazy, neurotic zombie that is too afraid to feel..)